Destiny....
How far you go in life depends on your being:
What we need to know about loving is no great mystery. We all know what constitutes loving behavior; we need but act upon it, not continually question it. Over-analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us no closer to insight. We sometimes become too busy classifying, separating, and examining, to remember that love is easy. It's we who make it complicated.
~ by Leo Buscaglia ~
It wasn't open
But somehow you let yourself in
Closed off and broken
I never wanted to go there again.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
So the fuck what if I feel sorry for myself .......? SO THE FUCK WHAT.......!!!! All you had to do was listen. I didn't ask for anything more than that. And you couldn't even do that for me. For someone you supposedly love??? Don't ever fucking accuse me of pushing you away again!!!!! I have begged and begged you to let me love you and for you to be by my side....and when I need you more than ever and when you are the ONLY ONE I want.....you fucking abandon me!!!!! And maybe there is something going on with you, but how the fuck would I know???
I am beyond fucking hurt.....and you are still the only one I can think about.....the only one I want to love.Someone told me I am feeling sorry for myself. I suppose I am. But it is hard not to when you feel like you have worked hard all your life and you end up in the worst situation you have ever been in, with no end in sight. It is even harder when that criticism is coming from the one person who means more to you than anything. And you just want to be able to run to them and they are nowhere to be found. Sometimes I think I am asking too much. And sometimes I feel like I'm not asking for much at all.....
